i did this on facebook a few weeks ago and thought i'd post it here.
pics to be posted soon i hope - new art & i refinished my dresser (painted & distressed & added new knobs from anthropology). my new room is coming together nicely (as well as my new creative space) so i'll have to post pics of that too.
lots of new things going on in my world. it's good. stressful and lonely at times, but good.
1. one of my favorite things to do is grocery shop in the middle of the day on weekdays. if people would pay me to do this, i might be the happiest girl on the planet. it's weird the kind of gratification i get from doing this.
2. some days i am so anxious that i can't get dressed. the way clothes feel on my skin send me straight in to a panic attack. i have sensory issues.
3. whenever adults or people that i don't know very well ask me what i want to "be when i grow up" i tell them that i want to get my msw and work with foster kids - most likely in public policy. i think it sounds good, and it's the thing i wish i wanted to do - but i know it's not in my heart & soul.
4. i want to create art with people for the sake of creating. i hate focussing on the end product. it makes me mad that kids are taught early on whether or not they are "good" artists. it should be about the process people!
5. i hate the way i look when i'm not blonde, but i hate that i like being blonde. does this make sense ... no.
6. while my sister was studying in durban, south africa, i checked her blog about a million times a day because i was so proud of what she was doing & how well she wrote. i can think of only one other time/person that i have felt that much pride & amazement for.
7. if you leave out the speech i gave (ok so i had a bit too much to drink), i think i was the best maid of honor ever, and joke about starting a business ... "rent a maid of honor" ... all the great stuff with none of the drama. seriously, i was that good ... ask alana.
8. i am ridiculously picky about the texture of food i eat.
9. i love love love giving gifts/ buying things for people. even when i really can't afford it.
10. i love being in school. if i could grocery shop, make art, and take classes for fun (and they didn't cost $$$) i would be set for life.
11. i decorated my first christmas tree this past christmas and it was probably the most fun day i had had in months. (thank you rob and melinda squared).
12. i am always mangled.
13. i plan to get a tattoo of a leaping conejo on the back of my neck under my hairline to honor my group of friends from high school, "the dark conejos" ... i think it's one of the only things i would never ever regret.
14. i am addicted to buying paper (notebooks, scrapbook paper, stationary, etc). addicted, i tell you.
15. even though i'm not working for martin anymore, i hope one day to still hit the road and go on a real tour.
16. i have a strong desire to always be needed by my friends, so i end up taking on a lot, i like to be helpful and sometimes i think it's too much, but i haven't really found a way to stop doing it and just take care of me.
17. i should probably untag a lot of pictures on facebook ... maybe one day i will get around to it.
18. i am afraid that i'll never accomplish anything because i easily give in to my anxiety & depression. i am working on it.
19. i almost always fall asleep while watching movies.
20. my dad's ex-girlfriend's grandchildren (did you follow that?) are the three most amazing kids in the world, and i spend a lot of time thinking about how crazy it is that i love them so much, and they aren't even my own - and that must mean that i'm going to love my own even more than that, and it's a little terrifying.
21. i hate beer.
22. i think my two best friends from college are my soul mates. it's true.
23. just over a year ago i witnessed a very terrible car accident on the freeway - a little hatchback holding 4 teenage boys rolled 5 times across all four lanes, landing on it's hood directly in front of me. i was the first person to pull over & made the call to 911. i can't tell you the amount of times i have played the accident over in my mind. all 4 boys survived and i think about them all the time. i wish i knew who they were.
24. i love my name. i worry sometimes about naming my kids because i don't think i can ever come up with a better name than my own.
25. it took me over 10 minutes to figure out how to post a note so i could do this thing.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
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Tuesday, February 3, 2009
pics!
i made 3 layouts tonight! ok, that's kind of a lie. 1 of the layouts i'd pretty much already made, just had to [finally] add the photo. the pictures are crappy, since i still haven't managed to really learn how to take awesome pictures with my camera [i know the camera is capable of amazingness, it's clearly me that's inept]. the 3rd one is my favorite but of course it's the one that blogger is not posting (seriously i ALWAYS have issues posting) ... but it's on my flickr. here they are:
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